What Do You Mean I Have To Comprehend Dao As A Mortal God?

Chapter 170: Avatasia’s Feelings

So I got another confession from another Guardian of mine...

But for this one...

I looked at the elf that was laid on the bed beside me, both of our clothes currently tossed aside on the floor.

"Ava?"

She tilted her head up to look at me from where she laid curled up on my arm, "Yes, my Divine?"

"You said you love me--"

"And I mean every word of it, my Divine~ Unlike some stupid girl who sees her duty as something more important than what she truly feels, I have no qualms about admitting to what I really feel for my love~ I would have thought I made it clear what my feelings were the last time, my Divine?"

She then pushed herself up and crawled on top of me, her boobs acting as cushions to smush against my chest while she smiled at me from above.

"I love you, my Divine. My heart, my soul, my body, everything belongs to you."

"Not that I doubt your feelings, Ava, but... I don’t know why you would have these feelings for me when we barely even know each other outside of our work here as Mortal God and Guardian?"

"Hmm... Did you forget, my Divine? I have seen the future, or at least parts of it. And those parts have shown you to me and I may be the only one here who knows you better than you know yourself."

"But the me in those visions of yours isn’t me... They are events that have not come to pass and it might even change when the time comes. Didn’t you also say that as a Mortal God, predictions of the future related to me aren’t really accurate either?"

"Mmm... That may be so, but I would say that what I have seen so far is also enough for me to fall in love with you, my Divine~"

I smirked at her, "Really?"

"Mmm~ Should I tell you why?" She asked, her hand stroking my cheek idly.

"I feel like this is going to be embarrassing for me so I think I will pass..."

"Fufufu~ That’s one of the things I love about you, my Divine~ You are just so cute~"

She leaned forward and kissed me on the lips before pulling back.

"If you really need a reason, my Divine, then I will just say that I fell in love with you at first sight~"

That sounds so cheesy... But I guess I’ll just take that over her going into great details instead.

She giggled, as though reading my mind while giving me her usual look with the half lidded eyes like a cat with secrets.

She then changed the topic, "What do you plan to do with Olivia, my Divine?"

"Wat do you mean?"

"Fufufu~ Didn’t she accidentally admit her real feelings for you? You wanted my advice on what to do with her, didn’t you? That little girl is so caught up in her duty that she finds the idea of standing beside you something that she is not allowed to do~ I find that fact a little sad, you know? If it wasn’t for the fact that you could also grow stronger through sex, I doubt she would even be willing to admit to her lustful desires and share a bed with you, my Divine~"

"I was thinking that it is going to take time for me to make her understand that she doesn’t need to put me on a pedestal before I can work on that... Actually, are you sure you’re even ok with this? Like... Me having more than one lover and all?"

"Ufufufu~ My Divine should really stop worrying about these mortal things. I believe that little one has already told you how it is allowed for Mortal Gods to be--"

"That’s not what I mean. I know about the law not applying to me and what not. I’m talking about your personal feelings about this matter."

She paused and another smile appeared on her face again, "Ufufufu~ Once again, my Divine... You keep making me fall deeper and deeper in love with you~"

Really? Just from that? I mean I’m also asking this from a common sense perspective, you know? I don’t know if these girls are actually secretly resentful of the fact that I may be showing affection for someone else. It’s not even that long ago where I was still someone who didn’t even have a girlfriend and yet I suddenly found myself being the target of affection from two different ladies.

She snuggled herself up to me and planted a kiss on my cheek, "You need not worry about us at the very least, my Divine. For me, the fact that the man I love is also well loved by others is a point of pride for me. It just goes to show that my love is someone that deserves to be loved~ So there is no way that I would be jealous that there are others that love you as well, my Divine~"

I had nothing to say to that so I could only just make a noncommittal noise in response.

The elf looked up at me, "Mmm... I have a feeling that I know why you are still holding yourself back, my Divine~"

"Holding back? How am I even holding back?"

She started stroking my head, "Have you not realised it yet, my Divine? You never initiate. It’s always one of us who initiates our love making sessions. And it’s because you still have that sense of guilt in you, don’t you? You don’t think that you should be doing this with us so you don’t take the initiative and wait for one of us to initiate as a way to show that it’s alright for you to make love to us."

Ugh... She hit the nail right on the head...

My thoughts must have shown on my face since she giggled and continued, "That’s very much like you to worry about that, my Divine~ As a God, you need not worry about such things and yet you still do~ Our feelings for you are genuine, my Divine. In fact, I would say that the fact that you are holding back so much... Is also causing others to also hold back needlessly too."

I blinked at her, "What do you mean?"

"Ara, ara~ If my Divine orders me to tell you, I would~ But that would be spilling someone else’s secrets though~"

"In that case... Nevermind."

"Ufufufu~ That’s what I thought~ But now, I believe I know why you would feel this way~"

I raised an eyebrow at her, indicating she should explain.

"I know you, my Divine~ I’ve seen a lot of you, more than you’ve seen yourself. I know everything about you. But you barely know much about me, right? After all... Ever since you’ve found out about your status as a Mortal God, you’ve had to fulfill your role as one constantly without time to rest. Now that you have a place that you can call your own, you can finally take a breather~ So I think this is the perfect time for you to come to know about those that serve under you."

A figurative lightbulb lit up in my head, "Olivia also thought of that, didn’t she?"

"Fufufufu~ That’s right. That little girl really has a roundabout way of doing things and she’s still not honest with herself. At least her heart’s in the right place I suppose~"

I don’t really know about that... It feels like Olivia might just be helping me make sure that my Guardians and I have a good relationship instead but... What do I know?

Ava shifted herself upwards, making use of her full height to lay beside me so that her chest was now in front of my face before she hugged my head to them, wrapping my face up with her bosoms.

"Fufufufu~ It’s alright, my Divine~ There’s no need to rush. I will show you all of me and in time, you will also come to know all of me as well. After all, I belong to you and only you. Every part of me is yours~"

"Why does it feel like you are going to drop something really heavy on me for some reason..." I mumbled into her bosoms.

She squeezed my head even harder, "Ufufufu~ That is mean, my Divine~ I suppose we will find out with time, won’t we? After all, it is also true that you are free to discard any of us and toss us aside whenever you want as well~ No one expects you to keep someone who you do not like after all~"

"I don’t like that... Treating you all like some kind of object to be used and thrown away..."

"In front of Gods... Mortals like us are all at your mercy, my Divine. To Gods, a mortal is not even an object to be considered seriously under normal circumstances. Mmm... It’s alright, my Divine, there will come a time where you will also understand your position~"

...

Hold on... Is she also putting me up on a pedestal too? Except she is the type who would happily worship me up close even when I’m on said pedestal?